Immortality
is hidden in every corner. When Fiona and Niall entered Machu Picchu,
they felt they were in another world, far far away from any reality.
They felt like nymphs wandering around between the old ruins, lying
hand in hand on the grass, touching old stones, discovering mythical
animals...
But
nothing is forever. He was from Australia, she was from England.
They
seperated.
Still,
even their love faded away with every day they didn't see each other,
the friendship remained. And the promise. Almost two years they
planned to travel together, and this time they would visit another
world wonder : Taj Mahal.
They
would hike together, as these days in Peru, in Nepal. Fiona's friend
could arrange a very cheap hike, so she told Niall in a mail about
it, and he asked for more details. He ended the mail with many hugs.
He was already going to the North of India, several weeks before she
should leave, with his best friend, but he would wait for her in the
airport.
She
sent him the details of the hike, and waited for the mail. She
smiled, remembering him climbing rocks, for the adrenaline, but also
meditating to become one with the landscape . He took pictures
of a story he didn't understand. He took « Frames », in
which different landscape elements like branches, stone pillars...
were a frame. They talked so much, about love, death, pain, parents,
future, and their countries and it's strange habits.
A
memory popped in her head, where they found a whole carpet of red
butterflies on the earth. She reached her hand to a butterfly, who
flied up, and -to their surprise- landed on her ring finger. He took
a picture, and add that Mother Nature is the biggest witch he knew.
According
to Fiona, Niall loved kicks, so he could feel alive . He was the
kind of guy who spend money in skydiving, bungyjumping... he was so
afraid for the rat race. He was like a tragic hero, she felt, from
the Ancient- Greek myths. He was looking for immortality...
In
their last evening they had danced the night away in Cusco. She still
could feel every emotion of that night : joy, pleasure, fear,
anger, sadness... every color of the spectrum.
A
week passed, and he didn't answer. She did not panick. She would
leave only in 3 weeks, and she was used to wait for answers from him.
A second week passed. She got a bit irritated. She was a bit afraid
that she would arrive alone in scary India. In the third week, she
planned to write on his facebook wall a big subtle message to ask for
attention. Suddenly she saw all the other messages beneath the one
she was writing. First, she didn't realize... but then it appeared
everywhere... RIP Niall.
It
became totally white for her. No emotions.
She
scrolled down and down. She couldn't believe this could have happened
to him... to her ... This is a story for a cheesy Hollywood
film, not for her life. She had so many thoughts, words, emotions,
images, memories... crossing her mind that she never really got over
it, and even years after, she can cry... in a sudden moment, when a
memory touches her eyes.
India
was not so crazy as she expected. Yes, she went. India, with all his
colors and smells, was maybe the best cure for her. In the first week
she saw how a car hit some Indian people, who flied in the ground,
and landed on the earth. A whole red carpet spread the floor. She
looked up, and the only thing her broken heart thought was that
nothing is forever... After she visited the place where he died on an
overdose, she went to an internet bar, and looked to the black
screen. Since then, she does not like it anymore when lovers and
boyfriends.. don't write back soon. She is afraid they will never
write back...
Her
lovers and (ex)boyfriends don't understand why she gets upset if
people don't write back... because she doesn't talk about him.
Talking about him makes him too mortal. She wants him just to be
someone of her past... so she could continue to live...
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